RICHARD COLES recounts the paralysing despair of his partner's agonising death from alcoholism 

RICHARD COLES: It is the worst moment, the opposite of that feeling of immense relief when you wake from a nightmare, then remember it is not real. This is the nightmare you wake into. https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9382637/RICHARD-COLES-recounts-paralysing-despair-partners-agonising-death-alcoholism.html?ns_mchannel=rss&ns_campaign=1490&ito=1490